Two Steps Forward

I was feeling a bit overwhelmed with the daunting task of fundraising eight thousand dollars in the next thirty days. In my mind, I was trying to invision how those sixteen much needed steps in the adoption journey would happen in such a short period of time.  I packed up my Bible and headed to my Bible study this morning. My mind and my heart were in a slight tough of war on the short drive to church. My heart knows that God loves me and my head wanted to make a fool proof plan for making sure we had the needed funds for the next round of adoption payments. I was having an internal battle with myself. Should we investigate the option of borrowing from Kenny's retirement fund or should I just remain calm and wait for the Lord. My heart longs for Jesus to come riding in on a big white stallion and save us from our fundraising woes. My head is thinking that I need a back up plan for the big guy on the stallion. I settle in for the Bible study and I soon have the feeling that I am in an audience of one. Me, just me, sitting at the feet of Jesus as he tells me via 2 Corinthians 20:12-22 to give thanks and to wait on him today. I am praying that I am hearing him straight this morning. Today is day one in operation mark off sixteen steps (remember each step represents five hundred dollars) in thirty days and I do not have a second to spare. I have a few errands to complete on my drive home. At all three stops, God has a person waiting to ask me about our adoption journey. I asked them all to pray for God's provision and grace for our journey. Two out of the three agreed to pray and offered words of encouragement. The third was trying to nicely tell me that I was out of my mind to even think about adding one more to the fold and even more crazy to think that people would actually support my plan with their checkbook. I made the choice to  pray for her, silently of course, and to keep smiling and nodding my way back to the van. I closed the door to the van and was to afraid to think about anything. I did not want one ounce of doubt to travel home with me. I turned onto Baxter Road thinking that Day One was behind me and that I had not made much progress on the adoption journey today. I stopped by the mailbox before turning into the driveway and  uncovered an envelope addressed to me. Inside, two steps of our adoption journey covered! I cried for an hour! God gave me a few other gifts on my travels today and I am going to bed tonight, $1045 closer to having Nick home. All He asked from me today was to give Thanks and to wait. I serve an awesome God!